Could Just Be the Words

I was actually just listening to some 'stuff' at work with the headphones on and ....

I wish we said I love you more growing up
I wish my father started showing up
More during my childhood
I wish I’d seen it
And not just when I got older with money to borrow
I wish I couldn’t say f*** him and mean it
I say God forgive me for my sins
But God says ... "James, come back when mean it”
And he’s right, I really don’t.
Still I act like it’s ok
He said ‘if you love me, you’d follow me’
I don’t follow… aint nothing to say

End of story

I wish 'the str8 and narrow' didn't bore me
Not thinking about it helps though
Seems like my prayers have strep throat
Cuz I prayed to stop thinking about my ex
But she still be running through my mind
So my thoughts don’t spend time
Where they need to be
My current girl be seeing me
But I don’t think she knows me
I wish I knew my self more
I wish I could help more
How?
I wish I could call it
I wish my uncle aint die an alcoholic
I wish I were a b-baller
You’d see my on TV
Wearing tattoos with a hidden deep message
I wish I could learn the messge in life’s lessons
Without going through the trouble
I wish I could shave with no stubble
I wish I were a man of my word
And possible a man of the Word
And Not of the World
I wonder if my mom was Muslim…
Would I be too?
I wish I knew

I wish I hadn't lied so much
That now I wonder what’s really true
I wish I aint say ‘I love you’
to women I only liked
I wish it didn’t feel so good
Not to do right
i wish it wouldn’t be the truth
and could just be words I write

i wish u could read this

and not ask if it's my real life

and would just say 'hey, that's real nice'

or 'i relate.. dude u real right!'

i'd simply smile...slight

then wish it wouldn't be the truth

and could just be the words I write